April 10 2019
Written in 2022:
I don’t know why I didn’t particularly take my episodes of panic and anxiety seriously back then. I was swinging back and forth rapidly, being frightened and scared and absolutely fucking terrified, and then just having all of it drop very suddenly… I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2021 and actually had my medication reduced, which ended up being a lot better for me to function. Part of the episodes was likely an artificial episode created by the pure adrenaline of having a heart rate that matched a panicked rat.