Written in 2022:

With hindsight, I know now that I was having stress-induced fatigue. That and the combination with my absolutely bonkers meds (last year I spoke to a psychiatrist to see what could be adjusted and they took me off of most of it and weaned me onto a lower dose of one of them) that was making my heart rate sometimes go to 120 bpm resting. I never fully recovered from my 2017 shit by this time (and I’m still not 100% but more like 95%) and we couldn’t figure out what was wrong. I didn’t know the stress could do this level of shit to the body.