Sept 13 2019
Written in 2022:
Oof, my distance from her was intense. The phone dying was a big deal, and she really hung literally ALL of her mental health on being connected via phone. I wonder if it was part of the codependency she was suffering from, intertwining her mental health with the ability to have access to her people at all times. I once suffered from it, a few years prior to this, but I have gotten past it (and I clearly had gotten past it at this point). I’ve gotten to be mostly independent and I don’t like to have to rely on anyone to make me feel good (but it is nice to have someone help out).
The exwife’s needs were all fucked up by everything around the phone. She needed to see what we were doing. She needed to be able to talk to us all the time. She once told Karen, “This is all I have.”
She chained her mental health to three. Was losing me. Grabbed tighter to two. Got cut off while dragging people with her, only one not feeling the effects of her anchor. She was a sinking ship.