Written in 2022:

I really try to look at things positively. Or I did. I’m not a very positive person, except when I am. I like to try to be grateful for current circumstances. I might use it to try to convince myself everything is fine and there’s a point to what I’m doing. But… I mean. It’s really easy to look at when I was vomiting constantly and unable to walk, then look at the current day where my mental health has been smashed with a hammer, and go “well I should be feeling better, actually”.

do miss drawing as much as I wanted but I like having financial security a whole lot more.