Oct 14 2019
written in 2022:
Sometimes I wonder why I dramatized these scenes to make it look like I was bullying her. It was playing on the fact that we both had cravings… but it was funnier because I’ve never smoked, and I don’t drink, period. I wonder if she saw my fucking around like this like how I put it in comic form. Was it threatening that I would just jump out and cheer for shit like this as a joke? Was it my dislike of alcohol that spurred her to start drinking socially again? We bought her as many alternatives as we could to get it out of her system, but was I contributing to her cravings?