Nov 17 2019
Written in 2022:
The thing is, why the fuck did I go back? I left them because they crossed my boundaries and when we did a video call, they talked about how they were still doing shit, and then?! They had hickies all over their bodies! I told them, “Don’t let me see the hickies.” I was mad at them.
And I told myself, that was unreasonable! Why be mad at two people in a relationship that are doing shit with each other?!
Except that it was supposed to be 3 and not 2. They were very brazenly disregarding every single guideline, every single relationship rule we set. I was livid.
And yet they still managed to get me to come back home early by saying how much they missed and loved me. This shit is obviously still echoing to this day, making me mad, making me upset, beating the shit out of my mental health while I work on purging it by beating this dead horse to atoms.