July 6 2019
Written in 2022:
I remember my feelings in that moment. The jealousy I had. The depressing distance I felt from them, from everything, how much I started to invest myself in something away from the both of them. Things were cooling dramatically at the time and I remember seeing the eagerness on my ex-wife’s face, the worry, the happiness. I remember when Jai left the first time, the sheer amount of tears that my ex-wife wept.
There was perhaps a time when we, my exwife and I, were in something akin to love. But there has never been a doubt in me that those two loved one another desperately, and probably still do. I felt like an obstacle in the way of their love. Jealous that the expartner got a part of the exwife that I didn’t.