Debris of Daily Life

Written in 2022:

I’m a person who likes to explore everything in a video game and I dislike being advised to go against what makes it fun for me, and then having that same person tell me that they did exactly what they advised me not to do and got the results I wanted.

I don’t really remember this instance very well but I know that I was probably upset and would often paint myself in a violent and aggressive light with my partners cowering away from me like this. I think I found myself being upset to be frightening all around, even if it was something like mild disappointment. Looking back at these I honestly wonder how bad I really was and how much was me dramatizing the level of anger I felt.

I wasn’t my best self back then.