I appreciate that the book begins with trigger warnings in the Author’s Note. It isn’t altogether common, so I give points for that.
My wedding vows lmao
The book bats away the initial idea of sexuality involved— I still finding myself doubting it. The skinship is immense, and honestly? This book gay. Just very gay. Especially at the big possessed makeout scene in the first part of the book.
These interviews between patient and doctor are an outsider’s perspective, analyzing with hindsight on the story as we progress. Thr doctor— a male outsider— is obsessed with her sexuality, I’ve noticed.
It comes up again and again.
This is so very queer. Yes, yes, we have the hetero version as well, but it’s such a trauma-steeped form of impassioned love. The reason why many of us weirdos are obsessed with the painful parts of loving someone.
You see???
Honestly I’m obsessed with this. I wish to wring the neck of the doctor. Because Roos is right. He keeps interrupting, has a solid idea of where he wants to lead her, has more or less made up his mind. He is condescending. He is an asshole.
The minor detail of taking off the shoes in the house is such a relief to me. I can’t stand the idea of living somewhere and wearing my damn shoes in the house.
OOOH the gay suffering, ooooh, oooh
I have been thinking this for some time, but I believe that Agnes murdered her husband. She loved him terribly, yes, but there are so many little things where we can observe he was not quite the loving husband. They speak of her as an object under his control frequently, and honestly, this seals my suspicion.
I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! HE WAS FUCKING HIS SISTER!!!!!
YEAH DUDE I CALLED IT
And then we had a nice lesbian sex scene.
My annotations stopped there because I became engrossed in the end. We reached a conclusion. And while sad, and tragic, and frankly upsetting— there’s a weirdly… good ending. This is going to live in my head.
